Sunday, November 15, 2009

I hate I loved a girl

hmm.. this is kind of very impulsive thing which happened to me the other night.
Never felt this way before.. nor I m feeling right now.. i really don't know what forced me to
put down my pen once again and scramble a few words.. but well I guess this was the way to give my heart a chance to beat in his own way for the very first time.. !!




I hate that once in my life i loved a girl

I hate that I loved her deeply

To me She was the most precious pearl

And I lost myself completely

Words now doesn’t compliment my thinking

And The songs has lost their former tune

I sit here alone with my heart sinking

Under the dark cold shade of new moon

I embraced a pain which was not meant for me

I walked a mile alone still trembling below my knee

I took the intials now the finals are pushing me away

My heart is broken and my soul is a helpless prey


It was my fault not hers…

it was my love not hers.

It was a mirage of hope looming in front of me the other day

I shouldn’t have walked up to her in that way

My stammers my truth my feelings became my weakness

With time I beacame selfless

Everything for me was a reason to keep her happy

And in the process my own lil heart became scrappy


I tried to push her away, I tried hard to do so..

But the very thought of her absence made me feel very low

I still love her but I don’t anymore..

I still am different for her but I am indifferent on the other shore


The girl will never realize what she really means to me

Coz already the prince charming has closed her eyes with his tender kiss

Whenever I try to convince myself about the fact

A dagger of truth just rips my heart apart



Things will change again

I ll rework on the script of my life

My story will never b a sad one for anybody but me

Coz I initiated it and I m alone standing here to face the consequence.


I will bring the curtains down of a tragic-merry love story

Of a guy who loved a girl who was in love with a guy

Hope my character survive in this chaotic story

And the girl and the other guy leaves happily ever after

Coz for me survival will b enough to re write my destiny!!